The Body Positivity Movement: Is it more toxic than we think it is?
This is a topic that has been on my mind a lot. I am a bigger girl well over three hundred (300) pounds and standing at a good five (5) feet and ten (10) inches and I can tell you that I do not feel positive about my body. In fact, I feel the opposite. My clothes aren’t fitting right, or I can’t find the right fit; being tall and fat means that my shirts are often too short, they ride up in the back baring skin. My pants don’t fit right either due to the shape of my tummy, so my pants won’t stay where it should be when I’m sitting down.
I often feel frumpy, dull, and depressed. I won’t lie, there has been numerous times when I stood staring at my stomach, pulling it, stretching it, and even punching it, while crying. Now, I’m not really angry at my body, I’m angry at myself for letting myself get to this point. I’m angry at myself for letting myself be so unhealthy that my anger turned to self-hatred, and I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate how I look in pictures. My state ID, to me, looks like a round ball with this small thing mouth just in the middle.
I get it, healthy looks different for everyone. Honestly, the way I see it is if you are breathing fine and moving fine, and if you don’t have joint pains, and you do eat healthy and are still over-weight in the medical sense, and you are happy and…
